On Friday, ABC aired its much anticipated Diane Sawyer interview with Bruce Jenner. Here, a round up of the most poignant and compelling quotes from the two-hour tell-all.
Note: We are referring to Bruce as "Bruce" and using male pronouns. Diane Sawyer confirmed that Bruce himself said that, for purposes of this interview, we should use the familiar "him or he."
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On his nervousness about the interview:
"It's going to be an emotional roller coaster but somehow we're going to get through it."
On telling his story:
"How do I tell my story? How do I tell people what I've been through? I've been honest with my family and everyone involved. It's been really tough but here I am. I'm still here. That's the good news.
On who Bruce Jenner really is:
"Bruce Jenner is, I would say, I have always been always been very confused by my gender identity since I was this big [gestures towards the ground]....God's looking down making little Bruce. What am I going to do?"
On whether he feels stuck in someone else's body:
"I'm not stuck in anybody's body. I'm me."
"Bruce: always telling a lie. He's lived a lie his whole life about who he is. And I can't do that any longer."
On the power of reality television:
"We're going to change the world. I really firmly believe that, that we're going to make a difference in the world with what we're doing. If the whole Kardashian show and reality television really gave me a foothold into that world, to really go out there and do something good, then I'm all for it. I've got no problem with that.
On wanting to put on a dress as a child:
"I marked the [spot in the] closet so that when I put it back I would put everything back in the exact same spot so I wouldn't get caught. At that time, I didn't know why I was doing it besides it just made me feel good."
On the first person he told:
"It was Chrystie [Scott]...Most women think 'Oh, I can fix that.' Most women think that. I never really hardcore said, 'Look I don't know if I'm going to make it in this male gender here my entire life."
On his sexuality:
"I was never was attracted to the guys..the sexuality was totally different from what I'm dealing with."
"I'm not gay. As far as I know, I'm heterosexual. I've never been with a guy."
On what his mother said when he told her he was a woman:
"Oh my gosh, is it my fault?" And I said, 'You didn't cause this! It's just the way I am, the way I was born, and it's going to be ok."
On living two lives in the '80s:
"I would walk off the stage and i would feel like a liar. and i would literally go up to my room and change clothes and walk around [as a woman]."
On hiding his secret during Keeping Up With The Kardashians:
"We've done 425 episodes, I think, over almost eight years now. And the entire run I kept thinking to myself, 'Oh my god!' This whole thing, the one real true story in the family was the one I was hiding and nobody knew about it. The one thing that could really make a difference in people's lives was right here in my soul..."
On having suicidal thoughts:
"That night, I thought, it's, like, over. I was in this hall right here walking up and down, back and forth all night long... heart pounding. And I thought, wouldn't the easiest thing be right now—and I can see where people get to that—just go in the room, I've got a gun, and boom—pain's over, it's done, you know, go to a better place. And I thought I can't do something like that. I mean, I wanna know how this story ends."
On telling his children:
"Those are the only ones I'm concerned with. I can't let myself hurt them. How do I do this? How do I do this and not hurt my children? I tried to explain to them that as much of your upbringing was 'her' as much as it was the he-side."
On Kanye's response:
"He says to Kim, 'Look, I can be married to the most beautiful woman in the world, and I am ... but I'm nothing if I can't be me. If I can't be true to myself.'"
On how he's planning on working with the transgender community:
"I would like to work with this community to get this message out. They know a lot more than I know. I am not a spokesperson...I would like to think that we can save some lives here."
On whether he has a song that will play in his head when he reveals himself as a woman:
"She's a lady! Talkin about! I love that song!"
On how he will be changing:
"You do face, breasts, you know, all that kind of stuff. There are certainly some physical changes to it, but it's mostly mentally. It just kinda takes the edge off...At this point, SRS-sexual reassignment surgery-will be down the line.
On whether he'd remarry a man or a woman:
"I'm so far down the road. It's the last thing in the world...I can't figure that side of it out. I just want to have a free soul and a lot of great friends. I understand your question. I don't...let's go with a-sexual. For now. I'm gonna learn a lot in the next year."
On the future ahead:
"If it's only this, I'll be okay. I've got my health. I've got my children. I got family. I got seven grandkids now. I'm actually really excited about the future, about what I could do...I feel like i'm going to be okay. 2015 is gonna be quite a ride."
On whether his new self is like a Kardashian:
"No, no. She's definitely a Jenner. Very chic, classy, black little outfit [shows a little black dress to Diane Sawyer]."
On what he's looking forward to:
"To be able to have my nail polish on long enough so that it chips off."
On what he's saying goodbye to:
"I'm saying goodbye to people's perceptions. I'm not saying goodbye to me."
On how he hopes people will act following the interview:
"Openminded. Have an open mind and an open heart. I'm not this bad person. I'm just doing what I have to do."
From the editors of ELLE.com